Awakening.
In the midst of a peaceful night
Underneath the glorious light
Of bright glimmering stars
Scattered in the vast purple sky
You turned you face to mine
And from your lips escaped a three-word phrase
A soft whisper that made its way
To unknown depths of my soul
Slowly our heads lean in, closer and closer
Our lips almost collided
But with a jolt, my eyes unfold
To a blazing morning light..
Finals? All-nighters? I guess I’m just “well-prepared”.
Just look at my instant coffee stash! Haha, I think these will keep me up for a month! Sorry, I don’t have the budget to go to ~*Starbucks*~ every night. I am not wealthy enough, you know. Plus, I cannot study well in a coffee shop crowded with so many people. Anyways, I have a lot of different brands of coffee because I tend to experiment. I mix them all up, when I’m bored. Another one of my quirks, I guess. I experiment with drinks and food. Oh well, gotta go back studying this big-ass book. Bye for now!
If sleep is for the weak then for now, I will gladly admit how very much vulnerable I am.
Yes. After a very long and stressful day, I can finally go to sleep. Today, we had an individual and group recitation in Anatomy Lab, two quizzes for Physiology Lab and practical exams for PT lab. I am so tired. and last night, I barely had two hours of sleep. I feel like my body’s just about to break down from exhaustion. But that’s all over now. We don’t have anything for tomorrow, just one quiz but we still have a 3-hour break before that subject. So I would be going to bed early today and just savor the long hours of rest I can finally have. Good night, my dear friends. Enjoy your slumber hours, too!
Not yet done studying for tomorrow’s quiz.
I must read half of my book.
HALF THE BOOK FOR JUST ONE QUIZ.
But, my bed is eating me.
Like, so bad.. it’s the worst temptation.
It feels so good under my body.
MUST. GET. UP. NOW.
Before it can swallow me whole.
BUT MY BED IS SO COMFY RIGHT NOW.
I just can’t leave it.
HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP..
I have my reasons for being a book hoarder.
It’s not because I have tons of money to spend on books. And it is not also because I just collect books for display and not for reading. That is a very offensive thing to say. I don’t read those books right away because I still don’t have time. But during vacation, I do knock off a lot of books from my to-read list. So please don’t say that the books I buy are just for show. I get offended very much for that.
The reason I hoard books and buy them impulsively is that I am afraid they might not be available the next time I went to that certain bookstore. It happened to me a lot of times in the past and I very much regret ignoring the chance of buying the books when I first encounter them in those precious shelves. I buy the books I want the moment I find them. It’s so hard to hunt for specific books, so why let that chance just go? I mean, if I have enough money to buy and the price is reasonable, what is there to think twice of?
I am saying this for people to understand. I have heard a lot of people telling me that I am an impulsive buyer and that I don’t really read them at all. Well, that’s just a big joke. First of all, why would I use my money to buy those books if I won’t open them? I am not an idiot to do that. And also, I just cannot resist the pull of bookstores. There was never a time that I enter a mall and not go into one of the bookstores. I just can’t help myself. So yeah, please just understand.
New DP by sucky webcam. Haha.
Some say that if you can sleep, read a book and get your eyes tired.
I did, and I also took pictures because I am really bored.
Well obviously, nothing happened for I am still wide awake.
It’s half past 7 am and I know that I need to sleep, but I just can’t.
So yes, I am a zombie and my sleeping routine has seriously gotten worse.
I WISH I HAD THOSE BOOKS. >.<
They say that people who stay up very very late and have trouble sleeping are probably depressed.
Well, count me in that ship, ‘cause the whole Christmas vacation, I have been up and sleeping at 5am. And it’s not because I’m busy doing school work or whatnots. I just cannot sleep. I feel lonely and useless and whatever. Why? I don’t know. And that’s why it sucks. I mean, I don’t have any good reasons to feel like this. It’s just that there is always that hollow feeling inside me like everything is not going to work out fine, like all the negative feelings inside me suddenly explodes. I hate this. I really really do. A while ago, I thought that for the first time, I would be able to sleep early. I went to bed at 10pm and was drawn to slumber. Imagine my irritation when I woke up, looked at the clock and saw that it was just 2am. I am fucked. Now, I am so so awake and alive. I don’t know what to do with my life anymore. I hate this certain time of the day. It is when I contemplate about things and usually feel more alone and lonely. Damn. I think I need sleeping pills but I don’t know how to tell my parents.
And yes, you may judge me, but it won’t change things for me.
It’s really hilarious watching people’s faces whenever I tell them that I don’t believe in God or any other higher being there is. It’s like they are seeing someone morph right in front of their eyes. Like I’m some kind of disgusting and unacceptable creature. In their mind, I am worthless and insane. A detestable being. In my mind, everyone one of them are crazier than me because they can’t accept the fact that each person is different and so are their beliefs.
Goodbye.
So my summer days are officially over. I am going back to my dorm tomorrow and my classes are back on Tuesday. So, here are the goodbyes I think necessary at the moment:
- Goodbye late night Tumblr-ing.
- Goodbye hours in front of the computer.
- Goodbye 5am sleeping time.
- Goodbye sleeping in ‘til mid afternoon.
- Goodbye posting every minute, every hour of everyday.
- Goodbye everyday movie marathons.
- Goodbye reading marathons.
- Goodbye music huntings.
- Goodbye Tumblr-crush stalking.
- Goodbye homework-free weekends.
- Goodbye lazy times.
- Goodbye eating spree.
God, I am so not ready to end this vacation yet. I don’t want to stress over school things again. But anyways, at least I’ll have my allowance back. So, hello money for me! :))
GOODBYE HAPPY LIFE. :|
